jump/fall, the syndrome.

i hope this one doesn't go over your head.
i hope you know exactly what i'm talking about.

sometimes, i lie awake,
thinking about all the things you said.
sometimes, i stay awake,
just to hear you speak.
and sometimes, when i feel uncertain,
i just cross my fingers and close my eyes.
i hope that you do the same,
because sleep deprivation
has become so beautiful.

i never did find that line you wrote,
but i found two more across your heart.
i don't want to push you too hard,
because i don't want to push you too far.
what place are you in?
and what place am i?
last night i saw the moon,
lost inside the sun,
and listened to your voice
slowly crafting rose petals.
you're so good at that.

this quirky smile hasn't left
my face all day,
and you haven't left my brain.
i've swam with all the words to say,
but i'll be lucky to remember your name.
your horizon stretch from left to right,
right to left, and back.
i'm nervous and anxious, a tad bit clouded,
but i refuse to let that interfere
with everything i want to feel,
and everything i hope
you're feeling too.

i can't decide if i broke
the rules,
because i never
heard the law.
i can't decide if i should
smile and wave,
or brace myself to fall.




we are not the same.