look twice.

i hate to realize
how many people look
at me and see
just a face.
i hate to realize
how many people look
at me and see
a simple mind.
i hate to realize
how many people look
at me and see
an empty book.


the truth is,
i am the mastermind
of an operation
that stretches
around the world.
i see, hear, and know
things that i
couldn't, shouldn't, or wouldn't.
so when you look at me
and think you've got all these
secrets,
i'm really behind the curtain
playing you like a puppet.


the truth is,
people see me and think
i'm some naive little kid
when, really, i'm more mature
than you could ever understand.
just because i
know how to smile and joke,
i'm a child.
so when you treat me like
i'm seven years old,
just know i'm the one
looking down on you.


the truth is,
my life is so
structured and strict,
regardless of what it
looks from the outside.
i plan things out,
and i get paranoid about them.
so when you judge me for
being so frivolous,
remember i'm the one with a planner
for a bible.






i'm sure you'll never understand, anyways,
or care to understand, either.
we are not the same.