new stars.

i once wore a crown of
silver and gold,
but they took it from me.
i once won praise for greatness,
and now i am deceased.
a ghost wandering the earth,
and you can see right through me.
i stand in your face,
and scream my name,
but you gaze just beyond my eyes.
i'm not even there, am i?
i was never even there, was i?
i am destruction,
right where i always have been.
and you never visit home.
what becomes of those
who are suspended just
above the ocean floor?
hovering between stability
and lies.
float between heaven
and hell.
oh, the red you kept from me.
those words, little spiders,
fly away in the wind.
why can't i
fly away in the wind?


where will you be,
when i need you the most?
you've become so numb.
a statue in a world of statues.
i expected so much more
and so much less
at the time.
my mouth won't stop.
tell me to stop.
silence your eyes,
daggers of steel.
give me faith,
so i can feel.
whispering dreams.
two and three.
i'm here for you.
are you here for me?

it's jumanji,
and i cannot quit.
thump.thump.thump.
where is the end of this game?
my soul is lost,
my head is floating.
you never knew, but you could always see.
your knuckles are stained
with the regret you feel,
and my days are numbered at 32.
i hate the speech of the king.
incomprehensible.
bring me the prisoners,
bring me the lions.
i've brought you to
expect the unexpected,
and to want what you hate.
if nothing else at all,
this must be fate.

we are not the same.