dictionary.

keep your foot off
the gas pedal.
you're pushing me
away much too fast.
you take away what
you dream of,
and you go in for the kill.
nature won't stop you,
and the gods never will.
oh, these lights are shining
brighter than i remember.
you shine so brightly, beast.
and in a world when no one
ever talks about deals with
angels, you've made your bed.

how contently you live,
you came here to live.
on the wings of icarus,
you allowed me in.
faith, my friend,
will be your end.
and in the end,
what wonderful words you spoke.
if only they meant something,
those mindless babbles.
if only you ever meant anything.
you see, the equation was wrong
from the beginning.
you left out the pivotal variable.
you forgot that plastic,
easily burned,
is deficient and beautiful.
shiny and immune.
i always have been,
and i can't transition.
it feels so real, doesn't it?
with circumstances as flimsy
as the paper you've written them on,
the blue fairy is dead.

i keep a world behind
brick walls.
i've brought you here,
just to send you away.
these brick walls are where
i can be found,
dancing just beyond their
sanctuaries.
humming melodies of
everything fake and wonderful
inside those bricks.
in the hollow of your hearts,
you keep lead bullets.
i've brought you here,
just to send you away.
i'm in love with you,
but with fingers crossed,
i hope you never know.
take what's yours,
and i'll take mine.
this broken life
is all i ever want to know.
i'm in love with you,
but i hope i never say it to your face.
when the lights go off,
the moon will fade,
and the stars will tell us stories.


bring her your cardboard dreams,
and see her frozen.
i've been here all along,
dreaming with eyes wide open.

we are not the same.