in the dirt.

i'm lacking in iron, and i'm lacking in love.
but i'm not so silly that i believe
all of this will ever change.
i picked the cover for myself.
i though it fit in well.
prove to me now, you are mythical.
prove to me now, you are cynical.
i've come to despise that look in your eyes.
another language, they speak,
but i know exactly what you say.
with all these motives i can't defend.
i'll take you out, if you bring me in.
cast me out, run far away.
i watched the colors, from white to red.
a new shade of hate with each word you said.
you're hardly a step away.

keep me, keep me.
k e p t m e.
and here you live.
to begin again, or to watch the flames.
i never learned the other names.
you know so much, but you talk so slow.
did you understand when i let you go?
i keep you here, locked away, on this shelf.
a silly toy, not meant for a boy.
counting constellations, you are living.
i've built you this boat, and the monsters are yours.
can you see them on other shores?
you, just a step away.

i've been wondering now,
the gauges of your secrets.
in the dark, you're never done.
in the dark, you are the sun.
back and forth, you roll.
the evening stars smile,
and they only smile for you.
how do you do those things you do?
as much as i ask, keep your world from me.
a plague, and destruct.
a heartstring, and explode.
all of the horrid acts,
and you'll never know.
bring me the horizon, but not yours,
because it's yours, and i'm not.
if i could be yours, but i'm not.
shirts and skins, you always win.
you are so much more than a step for me.



set me free.

we are not the same.