an outrage.

forgive me,
for i have sinned.
in reality,
if i may,
have you not
sinned as well?


the plans that i thought
you had for me,
have turned ugly
and here i am to
back away from
this very gem
i've wandered
the earth to find.
here's to the search,
not the treasure,
of everything we
hope to find.




i told you we wouldn't
leave this place as friends.
i told you i never lie.


i told you to shut your mouth
and smile.
don't let me hear another
word of it.


i told you what i thought,
but a summer away
is a summer away.
forget me.
while you still can.


you asked me not to tell,
to waste away in another hell.
with all these ships and
none with sails.
i'm not one to joke
about the canary,
and i need you
to follow my lead.
you thought your name high,
some horrid honorary,
but i need you
to take heed.
warning, warning.
take my hand and don't dance.
we are the kings.
i've given you my moon.






on a day like today,
i don't care what your name
is anymore.
i want to feel the beat
of your heart,
and feel what she felt.
that knot.
that terror.
that uncontrollable laughter.


happy birthday, rest in peace.
we are not the same.